Crash And Burn Tale # 1 for the week!

Between the two of these little boogers I have a feeling were going to have to take a trip to the ER lol!

The first day we were here Crash (Kaitlyn) ran into the door and got a black eye! Ever since then she's been accident prone! Now Burn(Parker) is running into couches and almost flipping off chairs! However there having a blast on the beach! It's too funny to watch these two little babies together there too cute and a handfull! Last night we went out on the beach and they gave Britt a run for here money, for them to be so little there super fast! Hopefully all this running will wear them out! Kaity Bug and P-Arker are having a blast on vacation playing in the pool and going to the beach! =D

 More to come.....

Turtle Beach 2011

Fun, Fun, Fun in the sun! It's time for our annual family vacation and I'm pumped! It's also 5a.m. on our first day and I'm Wide awake! We went down to the beach for a little bit with the babies yesterday and you can already tell there going to have a blast in the water! I'm just excited cause it's a vacation away from everyone, however I'm missing my  baby like crazy! It'll be our first week away from each othere and I wonder how this is going to go! At least I know when I get back I have a wonderful man to go home to! I'm off to the beach Hope everyone has a good day!

It's Like the Movies

Have you ever felt like something was meant to be? I must say the past month has been a wonderful one! After fighting with myself on if I should or shouldn’t meet this guy I’ve been talking to, I decided I should! He’s so much like me in EVERY way! This boy has been giving me butterflies, from the constant text messages to the phone calls to the random rides around the “middle of nowhere” =) Everytime I’m with him I can only see good things happening in the future! I know I’ve said this before but I can honestly say I’m falling in love ( hopefully for the last time) cause it feels like the first time! Everything about this one is different! I never in a million years thought I could be truely happy again after the bullshit I got out of, but I can’t stop smiling! Everything from his smile to his “hicky Hikness” makes me happy! The fact that I randomly got a dozen roses for no reason. “Just because It’s Wednesday, and you deserve them” (that was his reason) I couldn’t ask for anything else! I know this sounds so cliche but I can honeslty say I’ve found my “soulmate” or my Mr. Right =) I just want everybody to be happy for me, and If you can’t be then all I’m going to say is FUCK OFF!

Pearl

She is a pyramid
But with him she's just a grain of sand
This love's too strong like my cement
Squeezing out the life that should be let in

She was a hurricane
But now she's just a gust of wind
She used to set the sails of a thousand ships
Was a force to be reckoned with

She could be a Statue of Liberty
She could be a Joan of Arc
But he's scared of the light that's inside of her
So he keeps her in the dark

Oh, she used to be a pearl, oh
Yeah, she used to rule the world, oh
Can't believe, she's become a shell of herself
'Cause she used to be a pearl

She was unstoppable
Move fast just like an avalanche
But now she's stuck deep in cement
Wishing that they never ever met

She could be a Statue of Liberty
She could be a Joan of Arc
But he's scared of the light that's inside of her
So he keeps her in the dark

Oh, she used to be a pearl, oh
Yeah, she used to rule the world, oh
Can't believe, she's become, a shell of herself
'Cause she used to be a

Do you know that there's a way out
There's a way out, there's a way out, there's a way out
You don't have to be held down
Be held down, be held down, be held down

'Cause I used to be a shell
Yeah, I let him rule my world, my world, oh yeah
But I will come and grow strong
And I can still go on, and no one can take my pearl

You don't have to be a shell, no
You're the one that rules your world, oh
You are strong and you'll learn that you can still go on
And you'll always be a, a pearl

She is unstoppable
This is my "anthem" at the moment... after all the shit I've been through, I guess seeing him today made me realize I can really do better and I deserve better... so back on the wagon of finding my soulmate and I'm truely ok with it!

Getting stronger and Weak at the same time is hard!

So it's been almost 4 months since I've been "single" and I must say I still have my day's where I wonder "what if?" .... What if I wouldn't have ended it where would I be right now?! or What if I never found out he cheated on me, would I still be with him? or What if we got married? or What if we had kids?

I get in these moods where it hurts so bad, because I know a part of me will ALWAYS love him. But I know I'm better off without him no matter what! There's someone out there who deserves me just like there's a pice of shit white trash skanky whore who deserves him! I just guess it's back to the whole I'm tired of having to wait ... It gets old real fast! Why can't my "Prince charming" come knocking on my door, my heart is getting very lonely and it hurts!

Got a case of the Love bipolar...

So after taking a step out of my body and actually looking at my life I've realized that I'm only young once, why not live life to the fullest. I'm going to make a ton of mistakes, so why not face the fact now that I'm not perfect! I'm a hopeless romantic Princess who still has hopes there's a prince out there, so I'm going to fall in love over and over again... I just have to learn not to let the heartbreaks get me down! Look on the bright side, there's always another day, and another douchebag to deal with! =) but I've decided that I'm going to be wild and crazy and be young and enjoy it...why not?!

Silly Love songs

So I decided to take a look at what my love horoscope says for the 14th....

"You haven't tortured yourself over that one particular ex in a while, but right now it's weighing heavily on your heart. Don't let it affect your emotional growth -- write them a letter, then burn (or delete) it. Now is the time to say good-bye."

Seriously, Valentines day is the effing stupidest holiday there is!! Hands down!

I'm tired of seeing the flower commercials on tv! It gives false hope that there's a secret admirer out there for everyone! ha it makes me laugh! It's the first "Vday" I've been single in 3 years and well I just don't know how to take it exactly! Should I watch romantic comidies and cry and let it all out or should I watch horror movies and let the anger build up inside me even more!

It's funny when you sit and actually think about the past! Let's see the first Valentines day I had with the man (or should I say boy)  wanted to spend forever with was the best any girl could ask for. The works flowers, candy, a huge "I love you" teddy bear and well Love, lots of sweet wonderful lovee.  The next year well that's when it all went down hill, from the getting accused everyday of cheating to moving in and out every other weekend. You'd think it would all stop for Valentines day, well it didn't it just got worse. That's when the realy abuse started! and why oh why did I stay with an abusive(mentally and physically) alcoholic asshole! Oh yea because I "loved" him or thought I did! Yea real shocker when he cheated on me right after our 2 year anniversary, so I should have been the one accusing!

So I've given my heart to a "boy" who took it, stabbed it with a knife, and broke it into a million pieces. and decided to give it back to me in a box full of old memories!

Will I ever truly be ever to love again? With relationships you need trust and the one person I trusted my most prized possesion(my heart) with did the worst possible thing you could do and that's loose the trust! I know I have issues but because one stupid boy fucked up the trust I gave him I don't know if I can ever really, fully give my heart to someone ever again!

I just fill sorry for the next guy that want's to attempt to "love" me he's going to have one hell of a time trying to put my heart back together! =(

Strawberry Fields...

If life were like a movie, do you think it would be eaiser? One of my favorite movies of all time is "Across the Universe" I love the thought that somehow were all connected! Not only does it have The Beatles but it's also about love!  My two favorite things combined, not to mention the fact that Jude(Jim Sturgess) and  Max(Joe Anderson) are some of the hottiest guys I think I've ever seen! There's just something about this movie the controversy and the idea of love that it just makes me in one of those sad/Happy moods, more happy than sad because it is an amazing movie and a real inspiration to me!! =)

I ate a bunch of Pickles.....

"Would you stop singing. You sound like a goat" -Britt

"Would you stop talking your giving me a headache"-Me

I love this little booger! She's my twin, and were ALWAYS fighting but we do love each other! I must say tho, for the past two years I put spending time with her on the back burnere for some asshole guy! Now I'm trying to make up the lost time by having "sister nights" at least once a week! This weeks was very interesting... trip to Ulta, Best buy and Target...

Britt-"I can smell everthing..."

Me-"Are you prego"

Britt-" ummm NO"

"Britt, what are you doing"-me

"Trying to get in the car"-Britt

"That's not my car"-me

"what, omg... Don't tell anyone that just happened"-Britt

*From our shopping trips to our ROCK BAND nights I love that Little Loser :)

Oh Friday How I love thee....

Well It's been an interesting week... From the shitty work week, to the being copied by a cute little 2 year old! haha...

*1 am in Kroger in Snellville :) after we had the wonderful bathroom incident lololololol!!!!
(some random guy at the lottery thingy)

Me-"Hey, You know if you win anything you know you have to split it with us!"
Random guy-"Oh yea, What's in it for me?"
Me-" ;) wouldn't you like to know..."
Jill-"Did that really just happen?"
Me-"yes, it sure did!"
Jill-"You obviosly forgot to put your contacts in!!!"

*Oh how I love my girl days! Meeting new people, Random "shopping" and our emo breakdowns! I love the fact that even tho she's not she is my sister, and it's amazingly wonderful to have her in my life!

"This is... MY TIME CAPSULE" -Me
"He's like a greek god...." -Me
"You don't understand, The burrito god's made this burrito"-Jill
"I think they put roofies in our Sunny D, I can't remember a thing"-ME
"UR so gay, and you don't even like boys"-Katy perry/sung by Jill all day! lol!
"I think I locked my keys in the car..... Yep sure did"- Jill
"Your a pasty white girl, you cracka"-Jimmy!!
"OMG there's no TP.. ummm there's no paper towels either... "

*I feel like if I don't write these somewhere I'll forget they ever happened!!

Emotions....

I find it hilarious that you can get all 'tore up' from a song! I hate being an emotional mess! I wish I could just be normal but I'm not! If you knew how many times on a daily basis I have nervous breakdowns from all of the stupid shit I've been through! Maybe I wear my heart on my sleeve, which is NOT a good thing because I fall fast and hard almost everytime and I ALWAYS end up getting hurt! I'm tired of it! I know that fairytales aren't real but I would like to think there is someone out there for everyone! I just wish I'd have some sign of when/where/who it's going to be! It's really starting to get frustrating and annoying!! I'm very tempted to just give up! I'm never going to have my "better" half, my Knight in shining armour, or my prince charming and I really should accept the fact but I can't!

WHOREable screamo band....

Jill-"I want to learn to scream like that....(RAWR)"
*We both busted out laughing*
Jill-"wow I just embarresed myself"
Me-"what would we name our band"
Jill-"Horible screamo band"
Me- "No WHOREable screamo band, because ya know I'm apperantly a whore"

*Wonder twin powers activate*

There's a reason I love Fridays so much and there names are Jillian and Iris... there's way to many memories and stupid lame quotes we say! I enjoy "Our days" they make the world go round... even if I spend most of them being an emotions girl who obviously doesn't know how to drive... but I must say THANK YOU to my BFF for always being there and listening to me when I have my nervous breakdowns in the car on a daily basis! lol!! and I do love how our 1 day a week has turned into 2 days a week who know's pretty soon it could be 3 days... =) and I must not forget our dance parties with the little rugrat... I love that lil bit she makes me realize life isn't that bad, being all joyful and careless.. takes me back to the good old days when we didn't have anything to worry about or do!

*So you should keep an eye out for our CD =)

Happiness only lasts so long....

It was fun while it lasted but not everything lasts forever! I guess mistakes we've made in the past might get brought  up now a days and everything changes! Oh well all I can say is the past is a past and we all make mistakes it's the people that stick around in the "now" you want in the future! So I guess I'm back on the wild goose chase of finding a better half, it's ok because I expect the worst from every guy! I am me, this is who I am, you can either like me or hate me I really don't care anymore! I'm going to live my life just the way I want to and hopefully I can find someone who wouldn't mind spending it with me exactly how I am! But until then I guess I'm going to fake the happieness I wish I had with the makeup I have and the fake smiles I manage to do everyday!

Complicated...

So, when life throws you lemons do you make lemonade? It seems like the eaisest thing to do righ!? Well when your like me you just go get  a piece of paper make tons of papercuts and squeeze the lemon on them! I've figured out there is a part of me that is a Masochist, I tend to run to the "bad guys" and when I finally get a good one what do I want to do? Go back to the bad ones. It makes no sense but my Heart tells me on thing and my brain says another so which one do I listen to? This time I think I'm going to listen to my brain and not my heart because it does make more sense! I don't need the baggage in my life that my heart wants me to have! It doesn't make sense! I wish I could explain why my heart wants this so bad but I can't, It'll just end up broken over and over again, and I'm honestly tired of it! So I'm done with this running in circles! I'm going to take control of my life and break the mold! One last kiss (one last kiss)Before I go Dry your tears  It is Time to let you go
Because days come and go, but my feelings for you are forever
One last kiss Before I go Dry your tears It is time to let you go
One last kiss, Before I go, Dry your tears, it is time to let you go One last kiss

This is why Your not driving....

So Everyone has a best friend. Some people have more than one.. But it's very rare you find one that you've know pretty much all your life who will stick with you through thick and thin(no pun intended) I love my bff she's more like a sister than anything! I wouldn't trade her for the world! I'll be the first to admit we've had our seperation issues where other things came before our friendship but I'm soooooo glad I have her back! We go way back to the diaper days and it kinda saddens me that our kids won't be as close in age as we are(cause I don't have any yet) lol! From 2 headed cows to our wonderful shopping adventures I must say I look forward to many, many more years of this! However I think we've established the fact that I can't drive from freaking out at stop signs and having flat tires on the interstate oh and the random dancing in the cars I love this chick! She's the bestest friend anyone could EVER ask for and I'm glad she's mine! ... Oh yea... Oh na na what's my name?! hmm who Knows with all of the personalities we have between us! :)

Hummingbird Heartbeat

I've been singing this song over and over in my head today!! I must say the past week has been an interesting one! getting back into the whole dating scene is very interesting! I've went out with A LOT of losers, but I think I might have found a pretty decent guy! It's too soon to say anything but things are going really good! I feel like I'm in elementary school again crushing on the little boys lol! However I must say it feels amazing to be called insanely hot, witty, smart, beautiful and the list went on and on! He is a keeper... I'm getting really tired of "test driving" cars I would really like to find one and start making payments! I know that's a lot for someone my age to wish for but I feel like I'm ready! I'm not going to be young forever and it starts to bug me... I know I should be living my life being young and irresponsible but I want to be young and irresponsible with someone, I'm tired of doing it alone. I also things make us stronger so everything that I've been through the past few years has made me the person I am today! I'm a strong willed woman who know's what she wants in life and I will get it no matter what anyone says! So *fingers crossed* it'll end up the way I want it, if not then it's just another lesson I've learned but the feeling of being liked is pretty good if I must say so myself! For someone to give me butterflies everytime I see them and for me to smile everytime I hear his ringer on my phone is a good thing considering everything I went through! I must say I'm finally getting my happiness back and I wish everyone would be happy for me!

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My Silly Life

Do you believe in fairytales?! Ever since I was a little girl I've always wanted mine! I've been told that your going to have to kiss a lot of frogs before you find your prince! To be honest I'm tired of kissing frogs, you get the good ones, the bad ones and the terrible ones! I realize I'm young but is it a bad thing to be so young and know exactly what you want out of life! But, My life is changing a little bit at a time... I hope it's in the good way!